Happiness

The 90s have just passed. What is it that I can be grateful for and proud of? Well, I have achieved my masters, picked up knowledge in real estate, finance, tax, equities, law, dance and music. I think I have achieved a great deal which I can be happy about. With all this knowledge I hoped to be a happier person. But did I achieve that goal?

I think not. I soon realised that those were not the only things I wanted but I was hoping that they would be means to my happiness. Maybe I am expecting quick results but it would be scary if those were not answers to my prayers for happiness. I need to know if I am heading the wrong direction, then maybe I need a new road map?

Happiness seems to elude me. Sometimes I feel that I can never be happy. Where is all the pressure coming from ? When I reflect upon what I have achieved and what I really want, I realised that my life is still empty. True love was what I sought, but I never found it. Some say, you have to seek it within yourself. But I do love myself, except I need to share it too. However, I wasn't prepared to share it with just anyone.

My expectations of whom I want to be with soon hindered my path to happiness. I know a change of mindset, strategy is probably required. My stubborness has once again overuled common sense. A knowledgeable lady may be attractive to some, but her expectations increases exponentially. This may explain why there are so many successful women in business who are still single.

I hope one day love will find its way to my heart and that one day Happiness will bring me joy.