Reflections from the 'Passion of Christ'

I was so glad that Zen was with me. I anticipated that it would not be good for me to watch this film alone. As I watched the film, I could identify with the feelings Christ experienced and I recalled what I do whenever I feared or faced a setback. The Garden of Gethsamane reminds me of my dark room in the night. This is the place where I kneel and commune with God. As I watched Jesus pray in tears, I recalled the state I was in whenever I prayed for deliverance especially when I was hurt. Tears would roll down and my eyes would swell the next day ( my mum would think I lacked sleep!). As Jesus looked up and prayed, it reminds me of me in my room as I look up at my picture of the 'Sacred Heart of Jesus' and pray. I would cry as I pray. I usually feel sad when I feel alone and sometimes when my parents quarrel. As a peaceful person, when I see arguments, I feel hurt. Sometimes I thank God for the wonderful things that happen to me. For example, the wonderful time I spent with Zen last night. I believe it is a Gift. I thank God for my success in my work and the wonderful relationships I have with my friends.

When Jesus says ' Son behold your mother', I recalled that it is important to ask Mother Mary to pray for us. Hence, from tonight I will recite the Hail Mary.
"Hail Mary full of grace, the Lord is with you. Blessed are you amongst Women and Blessed is the fruit of your womb, Jesus. Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners now and at the hour of our death. "
We are not orphans and we do have a Mother. We should always give our Mothers the biggest credit for what they have done for us.

When Christ was scourged, I felt his pain. As I watched the film, it reminded me of the times I felt hurt. It was painful and unbearable, and sometimes my weak heart just couldn't take it. Nevertheless, God pulls me through as I sleep. Things always work out better when the new day comes. In the Film, Christ reminds us to love those we hate, our enemies. If we only love those we love, what reward is there? This reminds me of the times when I get hurt, that I should not bear grudges but I have to let it go and things will eventually turn out better when you forgive and let it pass you by as history. You do not need to remember and make yourself miserable. This is especially important between couples and families where close contacts expose you to more disagreements.

I was so glad Zen was with me as I watched the film. Everything about the film was what I envisioned in my mind as I attend Mass and read the bible. Last night, I was happy and peaceful. I said a prayer of thanksgiving for the wonderful day I had with Zen and Mel for creating that wonderful Film. As I lay myself to sleep, I prayed my soul to keep. When I looked up, I 'saw' Zen stroking my hair as he laid a gentle kiss on my forehead, then I fell asleep. Amen.