A Friend in Need

A true friend is hard to find. I was just browsing through a movie review of the Passion of Christ which is directed by one of my all time favourite actors, Mel Gibson. Mel is my model of a good husband and I do envy his wife for having such a wonderful, loving and loyal partner. I believe he is every woman's dream of a perfect spouse who is a friend in need and her tower of strength.

After reading the review, I knew I have to watch this movie. God is my father and this movie is what I visualise each time I pray or read the bible. However, I always end up in tears when I go through the rites of the Last Supper or the stations of the cross in church. When Valerie said that I am born under a lucky star, she may just be right. All this time, I do feel an unusal bond with God and he is my protector from harm. My entire life seems to be protected or well planned and all I have to do is just travel along that path. As long as I stick to his Will, I am going to be fine. When I follow my temptations, I am courting trouble.

I know I do not have the courage to watch this movie alone. I know I am going to come out of the cinema in tears and full of sad thoughts. A big contrast from the bubbly self. I didn't want to watch it with any of my girlfriends or sister. Hence, I called and asked Zen to accompany me. He agreed.

Why did I ask him when I was trying so hard to fade away in silence and not punish myself any further? I asked him because I regarded him as my tower of strength and if I was going to pluck up my courage to watch the movie, I definitely needed his company. The thought of him just flashed across my mind when I felt fear.

I know after the movie, my love and faith in God will be strengthened. Maybe Mel has directed a film that is constantly being played in my mind when I pray. I prayed about what was happening in my life. At last God showed me the way again. There was no need to escape from my fear and by asking Zen, I realised he is my friend when I needed him.